umm, here we go again

well the year started a while ago and it has been ok, for the most part like always there will be ups and downs not everything will be easy, there will always be obstacles to surpass, mistakes, problems that we learn from everyday of this path some call life.

i have been a little depressed lately thinking of all that has happened for me to be where i am right now, ive fough and struggled a bit to be able to show myself and the world that i can do anything i put my mind into , in this case graduate from my career, who knew college and life per se could seem so hard sometimes.

its been 11 years since i graduated from high school, i kind of feel bad and guilty that me being the oldest sibling i havent graduated yet, like society and family standards seem to say its the older siblings job to be and example for the rest of the siblings, this may seem easy at times but there are moments when this doesnt happen, to make things worse if you have a parent that is constantly pressuring you to advance faster than you can; you can end depressed or stressed out like it seems to happen sometimes.

ive been thinking lately that life seems routinary or planned for some people, there are exceptions to the rule that seem obvious at times, the normal path is to study a lot in your first years, then graduate first from high school then college, then get a job, and then what? some people take sabatical years to decide what theyre going to do with their life in the near future while others end up in dead end jobs and fall into stress and depression, and a small percentage of people end up doing something they love and can help others ; in todays modern world everyone seems to go at a fast pace and sometimes they dont think before they do something in general, we see people stressed out and depressed, among other social problems like poverty and violence , we see goverments try to help their country and the world, or tear their country apart from the inside.

maybe in the near future us and the future generations will help make this world a better place, if we have a good plan and work as a team so things will get done without any problem, ill try not to fall into a rut, and apart from studying doing activities that can spark my creativity and that can inspire others, ill continue writing in this blog, mainly cause i like writing it helps a lot when you need to express something and you dont know how to say it.

like i said one day lifes a hard road to walk