martes, 24 de agosto de 2010

Its close to the Finish

so this is the start of a list of blog entries which will be about my last semester of college, among other things, this will be so i can keep track of what im thinking and what im doing in life, and to reflect on the past and the present.

to start things off last week i started therapy to know why i act the way i act, and why it seems im sabotaging my own life, doing the minimal effort at a lot of things, thinking ill live easy through life like that, turns out its wrong, since im in danger of losing my professional practice if i dont change my attitude to my work and life.

i admit something here, ive always thought if theres a purpose to me living and being on this planet, because i think at times there doesnt seem to be a reason to me being here, because ive been depressed most of my life, i wish i knew why, at first i blame it on someone, and now the blame ends on me, because i need to snap out of it, and get my life together or ill end up alone and depressed, and finish my career well, not only in the subjects im taking on my university but also on my professional practice, but on my life per se.

this will be the longest entry ill ever post here because it will be a reminder of everything some have told me about what im doing with my life, and what i need to change to get my act together, and be succesful not only professionaly but also on my personal life as well, so for the moment this is all, i feel frustrated because it seems like im comfortable with the situation im in right now, i should be now living alone and already working but that hasnt happened yet, if i change my view on life maybe everything will turn out great in the end.

guess what, ive complicated my life more than before, if i dont correct my thesis this week, ill lose my oportunity to graduate and my parents will kill me for that, so what am i going to do?, easy run like the dickens to my university, see what do i have to correct , do the corrections and hand over the corrections as quick as possible
this entry is a work in progress but for now this is all