Mountains of regrets

i decided to write this blog after reading a message from a girl i liked when i was starting my college career, pretty much telling me that we could have been friends if i opened up myself a bit to her, i regret not doing that all because i was scared of being hurt, funny thing how life is and how things happen, you meet a lot of people, you do a lot of things, but what do they all mean really.

it would be good to leave a mark on the world, do something that can help people in general, and not be someone who walked through life so quickly that no mark was left , i think there have been a lot of people who have done great things in their live that few people know of them, but when they die , all the work they have done is recognized by everyone, ok i was going off topic there i agree, so i guess there are things and oportunities that appear in life, that sometimes you take them sometimes you dont, i dont know if the same could be said about people, look at the number of persons you know, have any of them touched your life in any way, if they have how, i guess you can learn things even from a kid, since the world is full of surprises and adventure for them.

The irony of it all

so figures a new blog and at a time im in a type of vacation i guess, funny thing when youre not doing a lot its exactly the time to think things through more, but sometimes thinking about stuff is not the same as actually doing something, its ironic in a way what happened yesterday pretty much a lecture from one of my teachers telling me that me and my sister were being treated like lap dogs by my mother, the sad thing about it , its true i never admited it thinking my mother would change but no its the same cycle over and over again.

and this has taken a toll on my professional practice at a foundation that takes care of homeless elderly people, i havent fullfilled my job as a psychologist there as well as i could have all because ive got use to people pushing me telling me what to do, instead of me taking the initiative and actually do something, so i decided from now on, ill give 1000% to everything i do, do what i have to do where im going to do my job as a psychologist and stop letting my mother treat me and my sister like lap dogs, seems like she doesnt want us to be independent, because she became dependent on us to do everything with her.